Sometimes I wonder if the sky will fall down on me, if the sun will never shine, if the moon will never come out, and if life will end forever. I wish that I never have to think about the impossible but in the world I live, thinking is just a part of human nature.
What is the purpose of living if at the end of it all, we all die. Nothing is forever. Not even the earth. Time is the lengthiest existence of life. But what if it stops moving forward? Will the earth freeze? Will I freeze? Will life be over forever? Will living organisms on the planet remain for as long as time shall let it? I wonder who the last human being standing will be, if life comes to a closing one day….or not.
Everything should be the way it is. No surprises, no mysteries, no scandals. Simply the way it is. I wish I didn’t have to play by the rules or follow the book. No matter what happens in life we are all doomed. Everything has an ending. Life ends for all of us. We eventually leave this beautiful earth and the rest is up to imagination. I wonder what would happen if humans could live forever. What if we never ran into life’s misfortunes and get to live for eternity? The earth would probably be too small to carry such a massive population of people.
Two days ago I met an elderly lady at the age of 98. She was sitting in a wheelchair and it looked like her granddaughter was pushing her in the chair. The elder woman looked as wrinkled as my kitchen towel and when she reached out her hand I saw brown freckles everywhere on the back of her skin. Her hair was bleached white and she held a long crane in her hands. Her granddaughter tried to steady her in the wheelchair but the elderly lady was shaking like a leaf in the wheelchair. Her head was shaking so much that I felt dizzy just watching her. I wonder what her journey on earth must have been like. Did she get to experience the world to the fullest? At her age, she must have undergone some major events and challenges. I wonder if she fears death or if she’s at all prepared for it.
What is the meaning of life if it all ends anyway? Life is not forever. It can’t be for humanity. There is just no way. What matters to me is what will happen to me after I leave earth. Where will my soul go? Do I actually have a spirit? I suppose I will never know until the right time comes. I believe that my fate and everybody’s fate around the world is pre-determined by a higher power. I cannot change it, only live by it.
At this point in my life, I should experience life to the fullest. There is no time for pulling back from my freedom now. Life doesn’t last. I can’t even imagine if it did. I must enjoy life and accept everything for the way they are. If life has any meaning, I will make sure I figure it out before I die. When the time comes for me to go, I pray that an angel will be there to carry me in her wings to a new shelter.